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just an update...50 DAYS, HOLY MOTHER!!!!

2006-03-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

that's right, kiddies. today marks the 50 day point until john david wilson and i are officially wed. we are sooo ready for it to just get here, 50 days is so close, yet so far away. on a side note, some weird kid that works with jd at the restaurant apparently was ordained as a minister on some website and he married himself to his fiance....HAHAHAHA!! but at this point, jd and i would almost do it too...just kidding. things are all coming together though. we finished our pre-marital counseling class last night and recieved our certificate to get half off of the old marriage license price. we still do not have a home or jobs in auburn, but things are coming together. i will only be living in my apartment in atlanta for two and a half more weeks!! yikes!!! then, i will be officially homeless for a little while. what a fun place in life. rachie, we need to hang seriously...not much longer!!! jd and i did buy our first item of furniture together a few weeks ago. it is a sweet dresser thing from the 1870's, quite frankly, it's freakin awesome. we also got a night stand and some hanging things, all at an antiques market in atlanta. what a wonderful husband i am going to have. he LOVES old stuff too. it was so fun to go together. we have also started receiving wedding presents..how weird!! i kinda feel bad for getting things just because i am joining my life with someone else's, but i can't complain. it's just amazing....the whole thing, simply amazing!!!!!

p.s. we need a song to walk out to (recessional) for the wedding. it cannot be recorded, must be live, but we don't want typical wedding music, any suggestions?? throw them out there!!!

some of my favorites....

2006-03-22T13:06:00.000-08:00

so, we had our engagement pictures done.....everyone should have our photographer...these were some of my favs.......

Seriously...Chloe?????

2006-03-09T13:33:00.000-08:00

i mean, i could have seen santino winning, his stuff was hott, but chloe.... i mean, she already has a store, hasn't she accomplished enough??? daniel v definitely should have won. he was the BEST......can't wait for project jay, he's like a crazy old woman!!!!!

hope you are all having a wonderful thursday!!

CONFESSION TIME: ADDICTION, NEGLECT, EMOTION, DESIRE, SUCCESS

2006-02-17T08:39:00.000-08:00

So, I must confess to a few things....

Addiction- i am addicted to reading everyone elses blogs and therefore not writing anything else on my own. I have recently been repremanded on several occasions, so i thought i would explain myself.

Neglect- well i pretty much just covered it, i neglect my blog

Emotion- is anyone else emotional these days?? i think there is something wrong with me. it is probably called being a girl, but i cry about everything these days. i cried to jd the other night about how we are an old couple and so boring...poor jd. he has such a sweet heart for sticking with me on those days. and then, yesterday i cried when i was drawing a kitchen at work and my lead broke in my pencil....seriously, i may need help!

Desire- i want black children. that's right, you did not misread..two nights ago i was with rachel. and on the first occasion, we were walking in the park and this cute little black girl was playing on the playground and when we walked by she waved at me. then, we were at fellini's (mmmmmm) and we walked in and two little black kids were with their mom at the counter and they were talking to me and being sooo cute and polite. anyway, most of you know i want to have an orphanage/children's home one day, more than anything.....and i have felt lead to have it in the us...so, maybe it will be all little black kids...cause i'm just going out on a limb here, but i don't think i'll be having any of my own

Success- guess who successfully filed her income taxes.......OH YEAH I DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a grown up i have become!!

WE HAVE A CHURCH PEOPLE!!!

2006-01-09T12:44:00.000-08:00

That's right.. we have a church to get married in!! yeah! it's official. it's gonna be friday night, may 19th, 2006. and anyone who reads this blog better be there. the church is wonderful. it is chapel-like with stained glass windows down the sides. just the right size to be big enough but not monster church. we are pumped to say the least!!! now, we just have to decide on reception site, along with many other things!!

but here is the most important deal, i just want to honor and glorify my jesus with everything, and especially dealing with this wedding stuff. so here i am, laying myself out there to be accountable to all of you, if i EVER am talking about this stuff(or anything else in life) and it is not honoring to the lord, i give you full permission to slap me right across the face, or whatever other punishment you see suitable!!

love you all..peace

2005-12-30T13:23:00.000-08:00

oh yeah, we're getting freakin married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as most of you, if not all of you, know by now. i get to marry jd wilson!! not sure what i did to find god's favor on this one, but sweet jesus hooked me up!!! seriously, he is an amazing man, and the only person i would want to spend the rest of my life with. so, here's how it all went down....

my birthday was december 15th. on that day he brought me 23 roses to work in the morning. then, picked me up from work at 5 with a peppermint mocha latte. we started driving north on 85, toward his parents house. he told me i was going to get a pedicure and a manicure and then later that night we were going to dinner. he also told me that my sister and his sister thought they were going to get to atl sooner, and have dinner with us, but that it didn't work out. now, let me insert that i swear he said were were going to some restaurant on a lake later that night...he says that he said on a golf course, but the lake thing in my head really worked to his advantage later on...i'll get to that though. so, we drive and i am starting to get a major headache. like migraine city. i seriously thought i was going to puke. so we pull up to the nail place, and i proceded to tell jd that if i went inside i was going to throw up at the smell of nail polish and remover, and i was sooooooo sorry for ruining my birthday present, but i couldn't even stand to sit in that massage chair with my head pounding. i begged to go to his parents' house and take a nap....he said we couldn't go there, because part of my present was out. then, i swore i would close my eyes, go straight to christi's room and sleep, then he said part of it was outside. i was soooo confused, for a few seconds i thought i was getting a dog for my birthday. {what i didn't know was that all of his guy friends who were to be in on the engagement, as well as christi and rebekah were all at his house. and the stuff outside, was their cars.} so, he goes to call his "mom" and tell her we're coming over and to hide my b'day stuff. {really he called to yell at all the guys and tell them to get out of the house NOW} so, we go to his house, i go straight to sleep..... and christi and rebekah wake me up. i thought they were just surprising me for my b'day and coming to eat with us. so they tell me that jd has gone to get us a table at a restaurant and we are going to meet him there. so, rebekah goes out of her way to make me look pretty and fix my hair and all(so sweet). we are headed to the "restaurant" when we start off-roading. i wondered, and i said "are y'all sure there's a restaurant back here?" they said yes and i believed them. P.S. i really think the lord made me stupid for a day so that i would be surprised... so we pull up in a field, i couldn't really tell it was a field because it was super dark...but it was a field nontheless. and there was a long path lined with candles. in my stupid-for-a-day mind, i thought this was the walkway to the "restaurant on the river". however, there was no restaurant in sight. so then, i see david and scott, two of jd's best friends walking up, and i seriously thought they were there to eat dinner with us. and i said "well, what are they doing here??!!" so, they opened my door and gave me a bag and a letter and told me to walk down the path and i would receive letters the whole way down, then someone was waiting for me at the end. so i am walking and out of the darkness, i start to see all of jd's best friends. they all gave me letters and told me happy birthday, so in my head i am thinking this is all for my birthday-what an idiot i am. then i get to the end and see my super hot soon to be husband in a suit!! mmmmmmm!!!! and he takes my bag of letters away and proceeds to talk about jesus washing the disciples' feet and all that it meant and that he wanted to wash my feet. so he did. throught my tights...it was funny!! then he helped me up and got on his knee and said so many amazing things that i wish i could remember. they went on for a while, then he asked me to be his wife. i was bawling and asked him if he was sure he wanted to marry me?? but he said he was sure, lucky me!! then we talked in the freezing field forever!!! it was awesome. i got to hear about how he drove to b'ham to ask my dad, and how he tried to get all of my amazing family to atlanta to be there. and how all of the letters were from close friends and family who had been praying for us and were so excited about the engagement!!! it was awesome. we went to dinner at macaroni grill afterward, he said it was just the two of us, but really all of our friends were there (minus some good ones that couldn't make it). but it was wonderful!!!!!
i am soooo BLESSED!!!!!
God is sooooo good!!!
things have been tough since then. just with trying to plan a wedding and find places that aren't booked. so if anyone would like to donate their home for wedding, call me!! but i know it is preparing me to be the best wife i can be to jd!!! so, i hope to see all of you on may 20th!!!!
p.s.s. i got my dress. it is gorgeous!!! i want to wear it for the rest of my life.
oh yeah, p.s.s.s. my ring is beautiful!!!!!!! what a lucky girl i am
and the best P.S. From Him and through Him and to Him are all things. to HIM be the glory forever, AMEN!!!! romans 11:36

AHHHHH

2005-11-08T09:02:00.000-08:00

do you ever feel all mixed up inside?? i feel that way right now. maybe it is the temperatures in the 80's in freakin' november?? not sure, but something feels crazy inside. maybe it is the enormous hospital bills that are piling up at my home, that i feel overwhelmed, and not sure how the Lord will provide?? maybe it is the fact that i want to get out of atlanta so bad, but am also trying to listen to the Lord's sweet voice for why i am here?? maybe it is because i really feel like i hate someone these days (and i haven't felt that way since high school). and i hate feeling and fighting the temptation to hate someone!! it is sooo ugly! and sooo from satan!

so, to insert truth: God is good and just and peace and love and provider and beautiful. he calmed the waters, HE WILL CALM MY HEART!!!! he doesn't change and the same god that was, still is, and will be for eternity. he is sooo beautiful, so beautiful!!! trust him today, it pleases him to trust him with all your heart!!!!!
he told me so, yesterday!!

hope all of my fans enjoy the post, since i have been griped at for leaving the one about jd up for so long!!!!

happy fall, or summer. ya know, the weather is confusing me

the most awesome guy EVER

2005-10-18T09:01:00.000-07:00

so here's the deal: i go to my car yesterday after work and i see some flowers on the windshield from a distance...but when i get closer i see a note. it read something like "i just wanted you to know that i am really excited about our date tonight" -insert, that i did not know i had a date last night- so i am immediately pumped about seeing jd, much less a surprise date. so then the note tells me to go to starbucks and ask the person at the counter for a cup with my name on it. i was sooooo excited. but when i got there, immediately felt gay. but i got over it, walked to the counter and said "i know this sounds really weird, but i am supposed to get a cup with my name on it" the girls at the counter were soooo excited. they wanted me to read the note inside to them and tell them where i had to go next. but i didn't. so along with the note was a gift card to starbucks. i got my fav..fat free iced chai latte. yumm!!! on the notepad i had specific directions through atlanta to my destination. i went through downtown to piedmont park. and as much as i struggle with atlanta. i LOVE piedmont park!!!! and i LOVE the guy that was waiting for me there. jd had a picnic packed and we just got to spend some wonderful time, on a wonderful fall afternoon(ps. i love this weather)just enjoying each other!! We got to walk around the park together, and drive around the awesome residential area near the park. It was pretty much the best thing ever!!! But as amazing as jd is(which he is and every girl deserves a jd clone) JESUS IS BETTER!!!!! HE opened up the door for us to give homeless guys our food in the park and show HIS love to them that way!! HE showed me the only reason i have the priviledge to be with jd...to reflect JESUS in a way that i couldn't alone. HE shows me through jd's amazing pursuing of my heart that HE loves me and pursues me sooooo much more. HE teaches me that as i long to spend time with jd, HE longs for me and the time i will spend in eternity with HIM could never compare to anything of the world!!! so jd deserves credit, because he is amazing. but he is only amazing because he is following the lover of his heart. JESUS, THE MOST AWESOME GUY EVER!!!!!!!!

bloggidy-blog-blog

2005-10-14T13:38:00.000-07:00

well kids, here it is, i am now a blogger. i refused facebook for a while, but was sucked in. now, it's blogging. what next? will i too start text messaging?? don't worry, that one won't catch on. ok, well i am trying to figure out blogging for twenty more minutes while i am at work. that's right, i'm blogging at work, that is how fun my job is!!!